Stress.

So...I'm stressed. What else is new, right?

I mean, I should be happy that it's summer. This has really been the most boring summer ever. On the bright side, it's been extremely relaxing. It may be too relaxing because I'm starting to gain a little bit of weight back. I need to get back into exercising, but it's been so difficult since the weather has been unbearable and I don't have a way to go to a gym or anything.

On top of worrying about my weight, my face has been breaking out really badly. I feel like I've tried every single kind of face wash and soap there is, and nothing seems to be working. All I can think to do now is to go to a dermatologist or something. I've been trying to grow out my nails too, but my inner stress has radiated to my fingertips a bit (lol). God knows it will only get worse when school starts up again, but I really wanted them nice at least in the beginning. We shall see how that goes...

On top of THAT, my parents manage to stress me out. Some bitch, who won't be named, once told me that my parents' stress has nothing to do with my behavior, but it really does. I end up bearing the brunt of my dad's stress and anger, and my mom brings me down when she complains myself. Sometimes I think that I'm just ready for school to start, but at the same time I'm worried about going back. I just really hope things get better than they have been in the past three years. Believe it or not, there once was a time in my life when I was literally "OK" or "good" as I tell people. :P Well, that was about five years ago.

I think I just need to learn to relax every once and a while, and hopefully things will run a bit smoother this school year. College is like life: it's what you make of it. Guess I better make it something, or I may lose my mind before graduation. Wait...I've already lost it. Ha ha. Well, best go catch it now before time runs out...